Tuesday, September 21, 2010

punishment

I am being punished for not fulfilling a task. The punishment is not be allowed to relieve my tension sexually. I have been denied the right to be able to cum either manually with a toy or in my shower, my shower head has a powerful stream to bring me to the brink of orgasm. I am also not allowed to touch myself except when cleaning or dressing.  The task was to provide pics of my back side, two of them in fact. Bared and exposed for Master to see. My problem is that i cannot do this with out fear of being caught , till real late at night, when child is asleep. Master is not making its punishment any easier either, by constantly teasing it and making it yearn even more for the release it seeks. But as a slave, no punishment should be easy, its the will of her Master to make it difficult, so that it will remember its punishment for a long time and remember to do as ordered. Being a slave is not always easy , but its the lot in life this one has chosen. This slut hopes to have the assignment taken care of with in the next day or two, then her Master may allow her relief if he sees fit. If not so be it. Thats the life of one such as shi.

Friday, September 17, 2010

thoughts on extremes

The last few days after speaking with Master about extremes has left this one feeling comforted, a deeper sense of what her life will be when she is in her Masters arms once again. Its as Master said, the decisions are his to make, if they were not then this one would be in control and not her Master. Neither of us want that. We have discussed things such as being caged either for discipline or punishment, for indeterminate amounts of time. The thought of being fully bound, caged, gagged and hooded, left in its cage as Master goes about his day, both terrifies and thrills this one.   This one has shared snippets of other blogs with her Master and we have talked about them. Spending hours online, sharing thoughts, dreams and fantasies. This one has been promised that when she is fully immersed in her slavery, it will not always be easy. There will be times when her body and her mind will be taxed at the desire of her Master. Her body will be permanently marked with designs of his choosing (tattoos) , her body will be well marked with the tools her Master either purchases or makes on his own. Her mind will be molded to suit her Masters wishes of it. Her dom streak will be stripped from her, and her spirit, mind and body will live for the pleasure or desire of her Master. This one will belong completely to the man that not only collared her but stolen her heart. That is what this slut strives for and longs for....More and more everyday

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Shi's first post

Today shi has started a new chapter in her life. Posting a blog that can be read , not only by her Master but anyone else who has the same interest as this shi. First let her introduce herself, this woman has been given the name of  "Shi" by her Master, this will be a blog about her life and journey as she continues with her Master. Shi has known her Master over two years online, and last October we met for the first time in real life. Due to lifes circumstances shi could not stay with the Master that owns her so completely but we plan on making our situation permanent by the summer of 2011. Will post more at a later time.